Bear takes car for joyride | Metro.co.uk

Bear takes car for joyride | Metro.co.uk

[I get nervous about being nervous]

I really need to calm down. I'm constantly nervous, anxious about everything. The worst part is that because I'm aware of it, instead of relaxing, I get worried about being nervous. I just can't stop. Any soothing I do is temporary at best. Why can't I calm down?

So- overall I don't really like the new medication. It doesn't really do much good. All it really does is make me nauseous and play video games constantly.

This is not fun.

I'm at work and I'm trying to stay awake. I know, I know. I'm always trying to stay awake while in the act of [insert important activity here]. But, today, I took Benadryl at lunch because I thought my throat was going to close up completely. Now, while it's not much better, but certainly not worse, I'm thinking why did I take diphenhydramine? I'm a hypersomniac taking over the counter sleep medication in the middle of the day. Brilliant thinking. When faced with the option of not being able to breathe, or not being able to stay awake at work, I would choose not being able to breathe. They can't fire me for that.

Moreover, I hate being tired all the time and not being able to keep my eyelids open. It's incredibly frustrating that all my body wants to do is sleep. I don't want to have to take the legal medical version of speed to function regularly but nothing else seems to be working. Bleh. I need to finish some statements.